Is a really possible to find balance when you have so many responsibilities? I have asked myself this for at least fourteen of the fifteen years I have been a mother.
The last few years I have struggled to find time for myself. This is not easy to do when most of my time is taken up by chores, work, family (though I love spending time with my family) and a hundred other things I have to do in a day. There were (and still are) many times I just become paralyzed because I am overwhelmed by responsibilities.
Before 2007, I would say I did not truly understand the importance of balance. Too much work caused stress in my home. My kids were stressed, my house was a mess and my husband felt neglected, not to mention the bitterness I was feeling because I had no time for myself or family. So I ended up going to the other extreme and clean like crazy, have house and home all in order but the bills would pile up because I wasn’t working and we didn’t have money. I still didn’t have time for myself because my life was still off balance.
In 2007 I made it a goal to find balance. I didn’t know exactly how I was going to find it but I didn’t want to stop until I did. What I ended up finding was that if I would just give myself time to reflect on my life and blessing, everything else seemed to fall into a reasonably balanced state.
I have a passion for horses. I have since I was a young girl. I think my mother may have passed down the “horse gene” to me. God has blessed me with two wonderful horses that I get to watch outside my window everyday. The years I spent living an “off balance” life, offered little time for my horse passion.
During the year of “finding balance” I decided to try and spend more time with my horses. Though time for myself was not easy to find, I had to try. What a world of difference this made in my life. What I discovered was that I could see my responsibilities more as blessing than ever before because I could see myself as a person first.
I am an individual. I have passions, likes, dislikes, wants and needs. The privilege of being a wife, a mother, a sister, a daughter, a friend and a women of faith (as well as the many other titles I carry) can only truly seen as a privilege through the eyes of a person who can see themselves as an individual.
If my story sounds at all familiar to you, I encourage you to find time for yourself so too you can better reflect on your blessings in life.